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I will not say goodbye (Danny Gokey)
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Description

Daniel is an American country music singer and church music director from Milwaukee, Wisconsin. He was the third place finalist on the eighth season of American Idol.


On July 9, 2008, four weeks before he auditioned for the TV programme "American Idol" (to discover new musical talents), Gokey's wife underwent routine surgery for congenital heart disease. It was her third surgery, but she died from complications. The couple had been together for 12 years, and Gokey credited her for his success. Sophia was a fan of American Idol and encouraged Gokey to be a contestant. It's easy to understand that this song is talking about her.

Transcript

[My mom was] just full of live, and such a kind-hearted person.

I thought I didn't like him, didn't want anything to do with him. I finally agreed to go out with him, came home and told my roommate that's the guy whom I'm gonna marry.

He was a great child, growing up, never had a minute's problem out at him. He really wanted to be a detective. That was just his dream.

This is the first time I've been back. It's like I just walk into a disappointment. It's my mum's house, it's where I grew up. It smells like my mum. I opened the door and walk in and she's not here. Nothing's here. It's just empty.

Sometimes the road just ends
It changes everything you've been
And all that's left to be
Is empty, broken, lonely, hopin'
I'm supposed to be strong
I'm supposed to find a way to carry on

I don't wanna feel better
I don't wanna not remember
I will always see your face
In the shadows of this haunted place
I will laugh
I will cry
Shake my fist at the sky
But I will not say goodbye

You think you get  this feeling you can't shake, when you know, that something isn't right.

That morning, when I woke up, I just knew. I knew that I was gonna walk down, and face my biggest fear.

We got a call, from my other son. He heard on the scanner an officer was found.

Losing Nan was not only losing your partner, it's losing your best friend.

I was devastated. If I'm going to this much pain and there can't be a God...

I heard my kids going down the stairs. They began to scream. We never hid anything from our kids, and they knew, if the army man came to the door, that daddy wasn't coming home.

They keep saying time will heal
But the pain just gets more real
The sun comes up each day
Finds me waiting, fading, hating, praying
If I can keep on holding on
Maybe I can keep my heart from knowing that you're gone

I don't wanna feel better
I don't wanna not remember
I will always see your face
In the shadows of this haunted place
I will laugh
I will cry
Shake my fist at the sky
But I will not say goodbye

I will curse
I will pray
I'll relive everyday
I will shoulder the blame
I will shout out your name

I will laugh
I will cry
Shake my fist at the sky
But I will not say
Will not say goodbye
Will not say goodbye
Will not say
ooooohhhhh

His ultimate sacrifice saved the lives, we know, of 3 people that day.

I want to help others that have lost a child in the line of duty. The hurt is still there, but we are here to try and help others that are going through it too. The hole there will never heal, until I see him again.

It's always been me and my mom. And then when my mom passed away, I felt ++++ and abandoned. Between my new family, the social club, and my friends at school, I have so much family. I can't even keep up with everybody. God's taking care of me. God's never worked more in my life than right now.

I think the hardest part about this has been the kids. The best part is, they are so proud of their dad. They're proud of the way he sacrificed. And even though we didn't have enough time with him, we are blessed by the time that we did have with him. I can't imagine going through life never having him in our lives.

Meaning

Danny wrote this song to express how he feels about his wife's death, but also includes other experiences from other people who have lost parents, children or spouses too. They are all Christians and though they feel so much pain, they can't simply forget them because they know their loved ones are waiting for them and they'll be reunited, and that hope, even though it can't remove the pain, helps them go on living because they know they are not really dead, but waiting for them in God.